Monday, 9 December 2013

A Piece of The Past

(May be seen as sad or depressive)

Have you ever had that one person in your life that has impacted on so much, that it's unbelievable that one person could do so much?
Had that one person that you care and love so much its amazes you so much?
The one special person that knows you so well but still stays/stayed even through the worst times you could ever go through?
That one person who you are so used to being there for you all the time, and in a snap they are gone, torn away from you without knowing, forever gone and when you realise that one person you had a connection with is here no-more, it's like your world has been crushed but there are remains left, and that hurts you the most?

I may be just 16 years old, but I've gone through things no-one should go through and lost people that I miss we my life and all, but the past is the past when things like that happen, we just push it to the back of our minds, so we don't relive that horrifying event again, until the smallest thing triggers our memories; a person, a place, a word, anything and there you are reliving everything.
Until about a few weeks ago I was fine, I had put everything that hurt me too much in the back of my mind, until I had to relive two painful events; one that happened back in 2010/2011 and that still scars me today and one that happened in August 2012; I had lost my best friend/boyfriend and a friend.
Both of them hit my like someone throwing rocks and fire at me, it hurt and burned me, I didn't know what to do, those events were put away and I thought I lost the key but I didn't so I broke down, I changed even though it was for only a few weeks, my behaviour had changed and I cried and cried until I couldn't anymore, I thought I would feel better...doesn't everyone think that? but I wasn't and now I still remember but its so damn hard! So I forgot, I tried to forget anything and everything to do with anything, pictures, little notes, anything! Its a bad habit that I do, I tear, chuck, rip any physical memory so I won't cry nor be reminded that I was left or hurt by someone.
A few years/year later I still remember what happened like it happened yesterday but it's not forget the past to me, its head up, straight posture and one foot forward.
Horrible pasts aren't something that anyone wants but always learn something from them.

But my advice is no matter how hurt you are by whatever, don't ever ever damage any physical memories, because remember not always can we try and remember thousands of memories in our brain, and you will regret it later.

Monday, 11 November 2013


Hiya guys again!

Doesn't it suck when you're going through a rough time in life whatever the reason may be and then someone comes to say "It's gets easier" or "Life gets better".
Even I have said it but it's like an auto statement that everyone has programmed in them, why can't someone say to someone
"No life doesn't get easier, as you get older you have more problems to deal with, related to why you are down or not, there is always going to be times when you don't want to be that age anymore but there then will be times that will be the best and you want to stay there forever"
This is true, yet no-one ever says it, I'm only 16 and I haven't had a lot of experience of life yet but I have gone through a lot in my years stuff that I love and things that no-one should go through ever. But what I do know is that false hope is what hurts the broken, saying that life gets better, a broken person will depend on that but what happens if life is the same a year later, we still depend on it and it breaks the trusting of other people, it may seem like its only a small helpful statement but it can always do more than you think

Giving advice to people don't say what you think they want to hear cause that may just cause them hurt later, give them reality but give them hope, it's like people in our world can't balance and bring both of them together. to actually help and make a difference to another person. To be honest the point of this post, I have no idea, I just had a urge to right and this is what came out.